closest to liquid

Last alc0hol u had:

:: blowjob and Shirley temple

Last movie:

:: hellboy 2. I don’t think that I can muster enough courage to watch movies again.

Last beverage:

:: water

Last call:

:: was trying to ring his phone just in case he slept. He might be late, you know J

Last text message:

:: “yun pala ang surprise mo”

Last song played:

:: love will you back

Last time you cried:

:: just this 4am

Last meal:

:: baked zitti from sbarro

EIGHT Have You’s

Have you ever dated someone ur bestfriend likes?

:: chaz used to be my bestfriend and I dated ken eventhough I knew that she liked him

Have you ever been cheated on?

:: at some point people cheat unknowingly

Have you ever bought condoms?

:: I haven’t bought one in the counter

Is there one person who can make you

feel better no matter what?

:: yes, and I didn’t take good care of that person. But how I wish that I could have him back again

Do you find yourself crushing on

someone currently?

:: rar. No!

Have you ever lost someone?

:: we are just physically apart but in my heart, Im still nurturing the love I have for him

Have you ever been depressed?

:: falling in to the depths of depression again

Do you smile at strangers?

:: depends on my mood

RANDOM:

Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

:: its getting better

What is your wallpaper on your cellphone?

:: green apple

How many people have you kissed in 2008?

:: just F

Were you happy when you woke up today?

:: not so but as we speak, I have a better mood

What is a fact about the last person who texted you?

:: he is the love of my life

Do you hate the last person you kissed?

:: no way! I would love to kiss him every minute of my life

What are you listening to right now?

:: chirping birds outside my window

What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?

:: pairs of shoes

Last night you felt...

:: jaded

Who are all the people you have text messages from in your phone?

:: would you believe that the 240 messages in my phone just came F? I cannot delete those sweet and caring messages because I may never receive the same content ever again

You're being extremely quiet, what does it mean?

:: I maybe sad or I am so happy that I don’t want to ruin the moment. Or I maybe thinking of what to do next

Have you ever kissed someone and never saw them again?

:: not yet and I don’t intend to be like that. No reasons to bury bridges

Last time you laughed?

:: long time ago

If you could seek revenge on someone would you?

:: no. just let it pass

Do you bump into someone's arm if you want to hold their hand?

:: I so dig cuddling. I am touchy to people that I care about

Last argument?

:: just a discussion last night. Peaceful and full of love

Plans for saturday?

:: none so far but if ever he asked me out, oh sure!

Excited for anything?

:: Oct-sembreak

Dec-grandpa’s birthday

March-my 22^nd birthday

April-graduation day

Last time you were confused?

:: this very moment

Do you hate when people smoke around you?

:: I don’t mind

Who was the last girl you talked to?

::mom

Who was the last person you talked to in person?

:: mom

Do you have any plans for today?

:: none. Sana ayain nya ako magmovie. hahaha

Do you think best friends can be replaced?

:: NO

Are you 18?

:: 21 at that

Whats the closest thing to you that's liquid?

:: tears? hahaha

What did you do last night, with who?

:: went to cyberzone, brought him dinner then went home to take a goodnight rest

last

sana happy na siya

tomorrow

You are in for the biggest surprise of your life!

Can't wait for tomorrow.
You have yet to see the best of what I can be.
Love kita eh.
Aja!

from Exodus

Last night, I read the bible and chanced upon the Exodus chapter. I found a very inspiring verse about being strong and taking the cudgels once again. Here it is:

"A strong person is not about the one who doesn't cry,
but the one who knows how to be quiet, sheds a tear for a moment,
then picks up his (her) sword and fights again.
Don't be discouraged by the hardship that you are experiencing today.
Those are just spices in our lives."
Exodus 14:13-14

I am happy and thankful now for whatever it is that is happening in my life. Things are starting to fall into places again. My thesis is almost done (just chapters 1 to 3 only) in partial fulfillment of my 1st semester. I may have experienced the most painful heartache ever but it doesn't stop me from loving him all the more. With love comes acceptance and forgiveness. I have let go of the hatred that once took over me. All I have is the love and care for him--the very same person who promised to love me forever and accepted me despite my flaws. I learned alot from the experience, it made me a better me. I gained a wider perspective in life as a whole. I love you. I never lost my faith that someday soon, it will still be us.


PS: I am getting mushy again. Hahaha. It's hard not to think of him. Oh well, I have to revise my chapters 1 to 3. Later

clearing

Yes, i was finally able to clean my room! I cleared everything, from the tiny dust to complicated cobwebs literally and figuratively. Funny how I managed to sleep on a jungle like surroundings given my asthma and "kaartehan". I guess that when you are too pre-occupied with so many stuff, you no longer notice how messy the place has become. Cleaning my room is the first step to a better me. :)

He is my buddy

1) Where is the person you want most?

♫ either at FLH office or driving around QC

2) Where will you be 2 hours from now?

♫ in my bed

3) Did your last kiss mean anything?

♫ of course, twas him I last kissed on the lips

4) Does your ex miss you?

♫ I so miss F

5) Does anyone love you?

♫ of course, I am lovable

6) Can you make yourself sneeze?

♫ yes. hahaha

7) What are you doing tomorrow?

♫ will work on my thesis or join PRSP grand prix

8) Are you easily confused?

♫ only with Mathematics

9) Do you think you would make a good boyfriend/girlfriend?

♫ I am trying to be one for my only bebe

10) Where were you at 9AM this morning?

♫ lying on my bed

11) Do you fall for people easily?

♫ No! I find it hard to open up but if I do, I give my all

12) What does your last text message read?

♫ “no. hilo na ako…”

13) What are you listening to right now?

♫ none

14) How has the week been?

♫ twas fine. So much of what I expected it to be.

15) Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?

♫ I love him and he knows that. I will wait until forever

16) Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

♫ damn right! I want to kiss him right now and twirl his’. Hahaha. Naughty me

17) Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?

♫ of course, he is the love of my life. He is my everything-my forever

18) Do you sleep with the TV on?

♫ no. I don’t like noise. I want complete silence or his breath near my ears

19) Are you too forgiving?

♫ I say that I am fine but I am passive—my coping mechanism

20) Have you ever wanted to be a fire fighter?

♫ nope, hihikain ako

21) Who do you miss?

♫ bebelab

22) What was the last thing you put in your mouth?

♫ water

23) Are you signed onto AIM?

♫ no

24) If you could have any car what would it be?

♫ yellow chevy in transformers

25) What are you stressed out about?

♫ thesis

26) Do you have anything in your pockets right now?

♫ aint wearing any article with pockets

27) How many windows are open on your computer?

♫ three

28) In the past week have you gotten sick?

♫ yes. Almost a flu

29) in the past week have you gotten a hair cut ?

♫ yes

30) How many profile views do you have?

♫ 198 in friendster

31) Who was ur last call from?

♫ nico pa yata

32) What do you want ryt now?

♫ sana april na para tapos na academic obligations ko

33) What do you do with most of your time?

♫ think of F and future

34) How many clothes do you have in your closet?

♫ too many

35) On a scale of 1-10, how good is life?

♫ 8—it’s far from being perfect but I am beginning to appreciate life and see the beauty of others. I am slowly getting by

36) Will you and your ex ever get back together?

♫ We are physically separated now but I know that someday soon, love will lead him back to me. I never stopped praying for us to continue where we left off. Time can only tell and my sheer determination to exhaust all possible means to be back together. I lift all my worries to God, He will provide for us in the right time.

37) Do you think you'll be a good Mother/Father?

♫ I will be the best mom to my kid/s. will give them the best in this world

38) Are you high-maintainence?

♫ I am not. I may be brand conscious but I don’t desire things that are impossible to get. I am starting to be “kikay” again.

39) Are you happy with the way life is going?

♫ Again, it’s far from being perfect but I love every minute of my life now. No pressures to succumb to, more selfless and appreciative and I am ready to start a new chapter of my life only with positive thoughts. God will never leave me. He is my buddy in this new endeavor.