this is the consequence of pissing me off early in the morning. hahaha. mike, i love this wallpaper and i aint going to change this till you are able to see this on my lappie. wink. the two love of my life in my lappie, can anyone get hotter than these savoringly sexy men?
Gee, it is only January 04 and yet I am already drowning in arduous responsibilities. I need to accomplish these or else I’ll be dead =(. These are some (only some because I really have a handful of them) of the things that I need to do. And the ranking is not applicable though. Wink. Knowing the ever fickle minded me, I’ll just cram so as to finish these grueling tasks ahead of me.
1. Technical Writing Report
Deadline: January 7
Date of Report: January 10
Tis is the most demanding of all. Topic to discuss is Factorial design. Honestly, I have not even started reading on this one. I am not even interested for unknown reason. Maybe I am just having vacation hangover or I am plain lazy or I don’t like my Prof. (tsk. Whatever, lea! Tamad kalang talaga). Trina dear, I am sorry for I am a lousy partner. Maybe today, I can summon all my interests to work on our report because I don’t intend to be roasted alive by Sir Villar.
2. Technical Writing Library Work
Deadline: evening of January 5
Gosh, the task was given 3 weeks before Christmas break and I was not able to go to any libraries in the Metro. Damn me, I rely too much on my DSL. Oh well, Sir Villar told us that online sources could be accepted so the best thing I could do now is browse on all relevant journals. I must accomplish this ASAP because this is due on Monday.
3. Public Relations Exam
Deadline: January 11
Date of Exam: January 12
Oh shit, I think I really have to read on the notes because Sir Jabal has high expectations on me. This is my chance to impress him. I must not succumb to pressure. Topics to read on: 1. PR- an attempt at definition. 2. Communication theories. And, 3. Ethical Issues in PR. The last topic is very popular nowadays with the rift between ABS- CBN and GMA 7 and ABS-CBN and AGB Neilsen. With cases filed on the courts, I just wish that the law will prevail and justice be serve.
4. Public Relations Report
Deadline: January 16
Date of Report: January 19
Whoa, I cant even remember the topic to be discussed. I think it is about Customer Service. I am not sure, really. Hay, Romina is my group mate, I’m sure that she’ll do ¾ of the task. Talking about a Ms. Know it All group mate and a free rider me. Ha Ha Ha. Oh well, I am almost sure that she’d ask me to do the audio visual presentation. Tsk. And so I am burdened to think more creatively now. Poor me.
5. Clean thy Room
Deadline: ASAP
Yeah, the lazy me welcomed the new year with my room looking like a cave or a jungle ( I think this one is the better term. Wink). All of my stuff are scattered everywhere. My shoes aren’t even in their proper shoe box in the rack. Books are practically everywhere. My collection of canisters is full of dust. And oh, my orbit fan and the ceiling is also full of spider webs as if I am preparing for Halloween. I even forgot to put draperies or a single curtain. Hay, lazy me.
6. Watch Desperadas
The date: January 4 and that is today
This is my sickness, I am uber lazy to do pertinent stuff but not for gala.I am going out with my HS friends and the venue is not yet agreed upon (What can I expect from Gara anyway? Peace). Gee, I have a huge crush on Will- the skinhead guy and I am itching to see him on the big sreen. Mind you, I am not even after his acting but his face value. Just his face. Oh, I can’t wait to see him in trunks, too. Skimpy trunks that is! I am so fixated with skin heads. Hmmm. And so I am thinking of Mike now and how he made me feel kilig everytime.
7. Shop and Shop and Shop
When: EVERYDAY
Oh my god, I must take advantage of all the sales in the metro. My favorite brands are on 50-70 percent off. I can feel my heart palpitating with just the thought of it. I am true blooded shopingera (Ate Fran coined that term for me, for her to describe my spending habit) that’s why. And that would simply mean that I am going to burn a huge one in my pocket. So what? Maybe, I am not cash rich but I’ll be filled with uber joy with what I call my little branded possessions.
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I can do all these. I must.
Topshop Sale! Jan 9-31, 2008. All branches except Topshop Cebu and Bonifacio High Street.
Rockwell Big Brands Sale! Up to 70% off, Jan 4-6, 2008, PowerPlant Mall
You are invited to Promod Philippines first sale starting the 4th of January 2008 with prices reaching up to 50% off on selected items. Visit Promod in Trinoma, Ayala Center Cebu, and SM Cebu Northwing to enjoy French chic fashion at fabulous prices. See you there!
Mall of Asia End of Season Sale, Jan 4-13, 2008.
Celine Sale, up to 50% on selected items, all branches, Jan 2-6, 2008.
Naturalizer, up to 50% on selected items, Jan 2-16, 2008.
The Face Shop, up to 30% on selected items, Jan 1-20, 2008
Robinson’s Fragrance Sale! Up to 70% on selected items, Dec 26 - Jan 31, 2008
Marithe Francois Girbaud sale up to 50% on all items, Jan 2-31, 2008
Kickers sale, up to 50% on selected items, Jan 2-31, 2008
When we are inlove, every thing around us is perfect - bad hair days, missing fave shirt, missed fave shows, lost stuff and other likes are nothing. We feel happy, content and light-hearted. We forget the pain and sorrow we once felt.
We ignore the heat of the sun, our mom’s every morning lectures and everything else that used to irritate us, as long us we see our significant other. He is the source of our happiness… he makes us complete… he is the center of our lives. Everytime we are in this, nothing else seems to matter… nothing… only him.
But not all of us stay as happy, as content and as light-hearted. Not all of us feel that “thingy” forever. Sometimes it only takes us few months or years then it ends. The sparks just dim, the feelings just die. No one can explain it, it just happens either to us or to him.
When we came to the point where we feel suffocated with him, when we feel unhappy, discontent and heavy-hearted, it is time to settle things right away. Do not wait till the feeling gets worse for you will be the one to suffer more. Have some time off, think things clearly and know what you really feel. When you are already sure that there is no other way, tell him. Do not pretend and tell him you still love him for you will only hurt him more when he finds out. Besides, you are lying more to yourself than him. Approach him and confess. It is better to tell him straight, better to hear it from you than from others.
This is only if you are the one having problem with your relationship. If it is your partner that is having problem… hmmm, the best you can do is feel. Feel if, for him, your relationship now sucks. Feel if the feeling he once had starts to fade. Feel. If in time you realize that he transformed from being warm to cold, then it is time to do your move. Talk to him. Ask and be sure you are ready to hear either of the answers - good or bad.
The common reason for not telling right away is “I don’t want to hurt you”… though he just did! Or maybe he is in the phase where he tries to know what he really feels. If that is the case, give him time. And, if the time comes that he is now sure and the answer is the not-so-good answer, try to understand. It is hard to accept it. Hell yeah!!! But what can you do? Ask for another chance? That maybe you can change things??? It is up to the both of you. But if the time comes where there is no choice but part ways, accept it.
Though it feels really bad as if you are sentenced to death, take it. That is part of it. That is how things are. Like I said, either you or him. In either situation, the next part is moving on. Though letting go is needed first in the latter situation for you cannot move on if you haven’t let go.
For me they are different. Letting go is when you forget the person, when the feelings you have seems to evaporate.Moving on is forgetting that you are forgetting and just going on with life. For the later situation, you do not have to kill the feelings for it is already dead while for the latter the feeling is still there. Letting go is the hardest part ,for sometimes it takes long to be totally successful. For some, success never happens. But once you are free of pain, everything starts to flow smoothly again.
In moving on, the first days are terrible. These are when some things still remind you of him or how he was to you. No matter how you avoid and ignore them. It is irritating sometimes. There you are leaving the past behind and yet there are those things that remind you of it. Then again, it is part of it. Time will come where you will just laugh at it. Sooner or later you will get used to it. Just go on. *sigh* Loving and being loved… it does bring smile on our faces, satisfaction in our lives but sometimes come with it are sacrifices to make, heartaches and pain when it is not meant for you.
Not always you are happy, not always you feel complete. When you failed in falling inlove, it is normal to cry, to brood and be alone. But not forever. Keep in mind that everything will be fine. Its hard but you must! Just think that love doesn’t want to stay longer. At least it did stay. Like what they say, life doesn’t ends after heartbreak… it starts there. Suffering and sadness may come with loving and falling out of it, but there is something important- it is the lesson we learn. The lesson that is left in us that will make us stronger, better and ready the next time love comes along. Who knows, the next time we fall, love will choose to stay with us… forever.
Your whole world can suddenly seem turned upside down when you learn the sad reality that the love you thought was forever is now over. It's like unexpectedly being doused with an icy cold bucket of water. You're instantly forced to look at everything differently and realize your day to day life will no longer include the one you love. However, the key to holding onto any type of future relationship with this person is keeping your dignity and grace during your time of discomfort and pain.
***and i am glad that I am surprisingly unaffected.
They say, the best is yet to come,
Sure, I’ll be waiting.
If he’s not willing to risk it all,
Then he never wanted it bad enough.
If he’s dumb enough to walk away,
I’d be smart to let him go.
Looking for perfection?
Buy a Barbie doll then.
If he can’t handle me at my worst,
Then he doesn’t deserve me at my best.
I am single but never alone.
I only got one life to live,
And so I’ll live it well and happy
Gee, I had so much fun last night especially in the latter part. Wink. Since, I’m not that effective in oral communication (as what you complain), I thought of writing instead. At the risk of sounding patronizing, may I put your mind at ease? I am not going to lambast nor go into raptures over you- this testimonial will try to exhibit some appreciation. I call my testimonial Five Things You Need To Know About the evil... err, I mean Pio. Haha. Good luck! I base these ideas on my 20 days of roller coaster ride experience. Nonetheless, having said this, I know perfectly well that the “ever conceited guy” reading this can’t suppress his wicked grin. Tsk.
The first idea is that Pio is a sweet talker. I’m really amazed on how he managed to make my tita, lolo and cousins like him. His blatant show of cheerfulness, I think could be one but I’m sure that it’s his sweet talking that works. Whew, he even calls my tita as tita, too. The nerve, as if they’re blood related. When he greeted my lolo on the first time they met, it seemed like they’re of the same age. Hay, feeling close talaga. And then, he would converse to them that goes like this: “…parang familiar po kayo sa akin, parang nakita ko na po kayo….” Whatever it is, thanks for making an effort to befriend the people close to me even though I don’t let you feel you’re welcome.
Idea Number one, then, is that he is BOLERO!
This leads me to the second idea, which is the advantages and disadvantages of Pio’s uber friendliness. He seemed to be so nice to everyone. He would comfort anyone he feels that needs some comforting. Comforting or flirting? Tskk. Hordes of women even profess of undying admiration to him and it gives me the impression that he’s enjoying those accolades all the more. Oh well, if it’s plain flirting, he is just a willing prey- a very willing one at that. Haha. What really touched my heart is when he relayed to me his conversation with a pregnant girl who’s planning of aborting the baby. He didn’t left the girl in the chatroom until she’s enlightened. I don’t have any update but I’m praying that she’d continue her pregnancy because a baby is always a blessing whether it’s planned or not. Am I right, Panget?! Hahahaha.
I do not mean to attribute unsavory, let alone sinister motives to anyone. I say only that since being friendly is nice and too much is FLIRTING*! Belat! *haha. Hasty generalization, therefore, is it a fallacy? Tsk. Opinion ko lang to.
Here is the third. Embedded in a good-looking face comes a very loving guy. I can see him beaming with so much pride whenever he talks of his family especially his parents. I was really amazed when he told me that he never utter a single Tagalog word whenever he spoke with his dad (or sa “matanda” to be exact). With his mom, he seems to be so affected with whatever problems they have now. I know how it feels to have a parent overseas that’s why I can relate with your sentiments- I missed my dad, too. He also takes care of his nephews; he would cradle Vhon until the baby is fine. I’m sure you’re just missing your baby girl. Haha! Moving on to girls, he had three past relationships and the last one caused him so much heartaches. Well, that’s life-it’s a cycle of ups and downs so you better get out of your shell and try to move on but I’m not encouraging you to go on a dating spree. Wink!
The third idea, then, is that it’s very rare to meet a hot looking guy who’s very faithful. Sorry to F***, you don’t know what you’re missing and how stupid can you get for letting a good guy down.
Here is the fourth idea: Pio is very addictive. I can explain this best by admitting that life was never the same when I met him. It is really pathetic to confess that a day wouldn’t be complete without those kulitan and chaka stuff. He awakens all the curiosity I have in life. It’s so refreshing to have someone like him around- asking impertinent stuff yet stirring a desire to go with the flow and lose all those reticence. Hahahhahaha! You know that I’m a sucker for stimulating conversations and yet ours were far from being one. Damn, who cares? So long as I’m enjoying every minute of it, I’m very much willing to stay up late just to have more. Tssskk. So much accolades, ako ba to?! Oh well, I’ve told you that I’m your number One fan. I can’t help but admire his strong will and determination to surpass all those ill-fated events. Dude, you can make it. Wink!
I come now to the fifth and final idea, which is that Pio tends to be mythic. I use this word in the sense that the past twenty days were just illusions. He is too good to be true. Those twenty days were one of the most wonderful passing interludes of my life. Yes, interlude because just like any illusions- it has its ending. I don’t believe in forever- nothing lasts forever as they say that’s why I’m trying to savor all the time left. Thanks for last night, hands down to you.
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So long, the magic is over.
