Your Day

Everywhere I go, memories of you haunt me. I sometimes wonder that I will never ever be able to go and move on from the ordeal. Tsk.

This morning, on my way to work, the van smelled you. That Por Homme is so strong and so sniff worthy that it transported me back to the olden days. Tsk. How I want to tackle you and sniff that scent to my heart's desire. Consequently, I remembered Nim's Island movie, and how I smelled it on that white shirt.

Because the meeting was set in Richwell Trading's office (in Q.Ave), I passed by Angelicum College or the Sto. Domingo church. I saw an announcement about enriching spiritual life that is sponsored by The Lord's Flock. I kept on refreshing my memory why that religious community seems to be so familiar. Voila! That's the same prayer meeting group he went to years ago (and almost had an accident in north-west ave area).

Rar. Him again. Tsk.

After the meeting, I dropped by BIR regional office along Delta. While waiting for my TIN number, I thought of his mother for she works on the same government agency but in a different branch. And it hit me that I have not shipped my Christmas gifts for them yet.

So after BIR, I hurriedly went back to office. I was trying to make it before lunch time because Celine will treat us for lunch. Haha. Happy Birthday, Celine! And so I took a cab---in the cab driver's effort to make short cuts, I saw 3 Charades. Why are there so many Charades near Gilmore-Broadway area?! Tsk.

Thanks to my work load, I haven't noticed the time. When it was time to go home, I did my routine: crossed out the date today in my desk calendar. It dawned on me that TODAY is the 11th day of the month.

January 11 is so memorable for it was the 3rd or 4th break-up. Twas the day that while watching ASAP, I got SMS informing me the "di ko na kaya" message. It broke my heart. It left me with no choice but to let go. Twas Sunday then, while praying to God I summoned all the will not to ask him back. I surrendered everything to God. I may have cried during the celebration, but I went home with so much peace of mind and acceptance. Upon reaching my room, I turned my laptop on and wrote a very long letter. I think I posted that letter here. Well, it was basically about accepting his decisions and thanking him for everything. Then came morning, he called to wish me luck on my PE class. Twas also the day (Jan. 12) that I cried buckets of tears to Camile just before my NatSci class. I even sobbed harder when he texted me that Tony's playing "Bubbly" in his computer. Rar. Major torture!Then he asked me to give him another chance. I gladly said yes because that was my heart's wish. I cannot imagine life sans him---my world revolved around F.

A year after, that letter holds true. I am so much into you. In fact, I am smelling the anti-depressant bottle. Trying to relive the glorious days. I guess, I still do. It never went away. No amount of heartaches will ever reduce the intensity I had/have for you.

January 11 is your day---in my life.