Read this:

If some 10 minutes ago, I am too sleepy to even type a word. Now, I am in such state of shock to put my thoughts in symbols. Gee, what is he trying to say this time? While he was having another recital, oh well, short story appearing in my YM window, I am really tempted to reply and put those accusations hurled against me in proper contexts. Those things happened like 8 to 10 weeks ago but I will try my very best to fill you, sweetie.

Firstly, what should I expect from someone with that kind of retention? We were in Trinoma when we saw your ex with her current named Vince. You even left me when you approached them. Then told me that girl used to love you like forever but found love after a year. You even boasted that the current resembles you in so many ways. In that unexpected meet up, all you offered was shakehands to the both of them. I remebered too, that we ate in Redribbon after that. You had your usual soupy Carbonara.

Secondly, I never said you said that word when you were asking me about passport thingy. If I remembered it right, I once exclaimed, “ganyan naman yan dati, he would call me Beb so that I’ll give in”. This is in reference with the Ym conversation sometime July when I got back from the South. It was in July—meaning you and I have already fallen apart.

Now, am I arousing some memory there?

Thirdly, you did send out invites. Not once, but many times that I grew hating you for lack of respect. I don’t see the need to paste the whole conversation here to prove my point. Alright, I have divulged it to some friends because I was in so much grief then. I was like the relationship has already ended and now he has the nerve to claim and ask for 5 rounds!

Fourthly, as for the testing the waters. I think you got it all wrong. I never said that testing the waters meant testing the situation if we could be together again. I used the phrase this way and this is all I mean, ever. Do you remember the night that I told you that you are the worst person that I have ever met? I was too mad that night then there you go, some weeks from no communication at all will send PMs asking if that was my uniform in my avatar. And the confidence to even ask me about Samsung LCD price in the market. To cut it short, what was playing in my mind then was “Is he testing the waters after the you are the worst person ever episode? You knew how I detest you that very night and asking me like we are friends is something I cannot take then”.

Lastly, I never cheated on you. Never. How could I when I am all over you? Never even had the chance to be with my other friends, for crying out loud. Visits from Pio were not planned. He came here with no text nor call or whatsoever. But those unexpected visits were relayed to you. I am certain that i have told you about it. Now, don’t accuse me of some kind of flirt because that is one adjective that will not describe me.Stop alluding to those “and more” like you mean I did it.

How could you say that you are very much happy and content when you can’t even forgive? Not that you are the one to forgive me, but did cause you so much pain that you’ve gone mad berating me? Can you even sleep for the PSP and DSLR justification you gave me? Have you forgotten the lies and betrayals you did to me?

Gee, between us, it should be me who deserves to be happy and all. I deserve that happy ending for I was the fool who believed that a liar can change and can keep his promises. Check on your temper. Breathe. Relax. Show that puppy eye smile. Thank you.

P.S: I am not to neglect my ninang obligations. I only lost you, not all of them. It has been a long time since I saw them. Kiss them for me for I miss those adorable kids like I miss you. And oh, no more testing the waters for I might be misconstrued again. Rest assured that my friends and I no longer talk about you. Mind you, it only happened once. With all these being written here, I do hope that forgiveness might spring into the depths of your heart. Can’t wait for a PM to pop in my window that reads “I have forgiven you and I have let go of whatever happened between us. I am happy now and thank you for whatever it may cause”.